You just were not meant to be
You hurt me.
My soul, my heart
My tears,
Have for a long time cried for revenge.
Nothing though
Can take away
The pain you gave to me.
Years spent wondering,
Looking for answers,
Only a deaf could see,
In the darkness of your
Empty heart,
The tombstone’s inscription
Containing the explanation:
Mom you never loved me.
So now forgive me if
My heart have forgotten
Your face.
Your grave lies in an empty place
Where once, long ago,
There was love.
You’ve taken it and
Thrown it away in the dustbin
Like a rotten fruit.
I haven’t taken it back,
It was your doing,
Your decision.
You now are just gone,
Forgotten.
The pain though remains the same,
It never really goes away
Memories keep it alive,
Just the feelings are gone.
I do not cry your lost,
You taught me well not to miss you
And I have learned my lesson even better.
Sometimes I wonder about things that could have been,
But never were, because of you.
Now I am thirty-six years old
Of which twenty-three without you
And still counting until I die.
No worries about my broken heart,
It has found peace the day it has forgotten of you.
Long, long time ago.
Goodbye mom, you just were not meant to be.